donkey ass!

well, my day has sucked donkey ass today. i can't really say that about the entire day. here's the breakdown:

1) i bought an ipod mini online today. it's pink and i got it engraved with "don't ask" on the first line and "don't tell" on the first line. so if anyone finds a pink ipod mini with that etched on the back of it, please contact me and there will be a reward for it.

2) i finally got down to coupe bizzarre and got my hair done. i feel really self conscious right now because it's really bright - like day-glo. a few washes and it'll be toned down.

3) i've decided that i'm not longer in love with nathan and am in fact 'in love' with ian the bartender. if only my fickle heart would make up its damned mind. the only problem with that is that i don't know if he's gotten back together with his ex-girlfriend. they work together and a lot of really odd things have happened since the broke up so there's a lot of hazy grey area right now. i really should just go up to him and ask him but there is never a good opportunity. i was going to ask him yesterday when i left the bar but a herd of people walked in and kept him occupied.

i don't know what the hell is going on!! he looked so damn good last night too. i was pretty sure that he was interested two-three weeks ago but i didn't respond to any of his signals because i wanted to give him and his ex that reconciliation period just in case anything happened. and guess what? it did! at least that's what i'm thinking. jen thinks that they just got drunk a few times and fell into bed with each other because they had just broken up and it's easy to do that when you have history with someone. i'm not so sure.

i wish everything was cut and dry. it would make it much easier on me. yes, that's right, i want the entire world to bend and fold just to make my life easier.

hopefully i will get a chance to ask him sometime this week. i'm fairly certain that he's dating leah again but i would feel better about this whole situation if i knew. wow, i haven't been so stressed about a boy in a long while.

jen made a good observation tonight: why is it that i have huge crushed on boys who work with their ex-girlfriends? i don't know, apparently it's just my luck.

time for bed and to contemplate my love life [lack there of].