small window...

ian and leah had in fact broken up. however, that was a really small window of opportunity that i missed because he is now dating his ex from before leah. what's with me and guys who are involved with their exes? maybe he'll break up with her too. who knows. really, he's a very trivial part of my thoughts. easily replaceable but there's just no one to replace him with. i wonder when nathan will start appealing to me again. it's been about three weeks so i'm guessing that will cycle around again in a week of two.

hmm, sidney's wedding is on saturday. i still don't know what i'm wearing. all i know if that i'm doing green or blue eyes and i've got earrings already. no dress. i think i have a bag already. i wonder if jennifer is going to bring her boyfriend. i'm not looking forward to piling into the family car for the ride all the way to niagara. i'm going to find out if there's room in one of the cars going out of mississauga. i would much rather sit in a minivan than our little corolla.

i need to dye my hair again. the dye jobs from the salons always fade so fast. it doesn't have quite the same time to set as it does when i dye my hair at home. of course, there's not much coupe bizzarre can do in comparison to my eight hours of sleep with dye in my hair. i did get it trimmed again too. it was starting to get messy and shapeless. i'm getting my brows done tomorrow (finally).

i went for a run today. i've realized that i can't run anywhere but on the track. i didn't pace myself very well and ended up running way to fast from the get go and had to stop a little while later. i did five laps last week which surprised me because i thought i would only get three done. if i run three times a week, i will hopefully be fit enough to run the 5km in october.

well, bed time (i think...i've been staring at my guitar for the past little while so i might fiddle with that for a while).

donkey ass!

well, my day has sucked donkey ass today. i can't really say that about the entire day. here's the breakdown:

1) i bought an ipod mini online today. it's pink and i got it engraved with "don't ask" on the first line and "don't tell" on the first line. so if anyone finds a pink ipod mini with that etched on the back of it, please contact me and there will be a reward for it.

2) i finally got down to coupe bizzarre and got my hair done. i feel really self conscious right now because it's really bright - like day-glo. a few washes and it'll be toned down.

3) i've decided that i'm not longer in love with nathan and am in fact 'in love' with ian the bartender. if only my fickle heart would make up its damned mind. the only problem with that is that i don't know if he's gotten back together with his ex-girlfriend. they work together and a lot of really odd things have happened since the broke up so there's a lot of hazy grey area right now. i really should just go up to him and ask him but there is never a good opportunity. i was going to ask him yesterday when i left the bar but a herd of people walked in and kept him occupied.

i don't know what the hell is going on!! he looked so damn good last night too. i was pretty sure that he was interested two-three weeks ago but i didn't respond to any of his signals because i wanted to give him and his ex that reconciliation period just in case anything happened. and guess what? it did! at least that's what i'm thinking. jen thinks that they just got drunk a few times and fell into bed with each other because they had just broken up and it's easy to do that when you have history with someone. i'm not so sure.

i wish everything was cut and dry. it would make it much easier on me. yes, that's right, i want the entire world to bend and fold just to make my life easier.

hopefully i will get a chance to ask him sometime this week. i'm fairly certain that he's dating leah again but i would feel better about this whole situation if i knew. wow, i haven't been so stressed about a boy in a long while.

jen made a good observation tonight: why is it that i have huge crushed on boys who work with their ex-girlfriends? i don't know, apparently it's just my luck.

time for bed and to contemplate my love life [lack there of].

online at last

finally, i'm all hooked up to the internet at home. i can't really say "finally" because it's completely my own fault for not hooking it up sooner. i'm waiting for multiple loads of laundry right now so i thought it would be a good idea to plug in. too bad i don't have a desk and my laptop is currently perched on top of a milk create. i thought that i would be able to bypass the entire student living phase but alas...

well, let's see what's happened since i last updated...

1) i have been promoted to 'event coordinator' at work. i have a desk job!! eek...i do like having a nine to fiver but i do miss being a jackass on the floor as well. i think i'm going to start bartending or serving some of the parties that liz or peter books. show these new people how to really work a function.

2) i've fallen in and out of love with brandon flowers, ian the bartender, nathan, and i'm currently in love with j.d. from 'rockstar inxs'. i really need to get a life. did anyone else know that brandon flowers is mormon and he's getting married to his long time girlfriend in october? i'm not a stalker, i swear on my first born.

3) steve asked me out and i said "no" due to my business ethics. sorry buddy, i can't be seeing an executive sous chef. if he ever questions why i sleep with nathan occasionally, i can say "we slept with each other way before we got our promotions so we're really on the same levels of authority. you however, have much more power that me [in theory] therefore, i can't sleep with you even if i wanted to [which i don't]".

4) i did the 'bell city chase' with my friend, mel, two saturdays ago. i must have sweated off at least 10 pounds worth of water weight. we ran all over the city in high quality (read: thick!) dark navy t-shirts. there were tons of cute boys doing the chase too. ladies, if you want to meet a bunch of hot guys, start participating in some sports league. even if you don't talk to them, there's plenty of eye candy.

that's all that i can think of right now but a lot of other stuff has happened.

i saw the killers and joss stone in one week. both shows were great. i can't believe that they're both such good live acts. tegan and sara opened for the killers and they sucked the life blood out of the crowd when they played after louis the 14th. as talented as those twins are, they should not have been slotted between those two bands. joss stone is huge! i mean physically, she's got to be at least a foot taller than me.

i've got so much work to do tomorrow. i wish fridays were my 'lite' days. i usually end up having to stay late for one reason or another. last week i ended up staying three hours longer than i intended to. i was almost out the door when i heard my name being called...i should have just pretended not to hear. but i'm not the type of person to screw over my fellow co-workers so i have to always turn around when i hear someone call my name.

i'm going to download some music now. more updates to come... =)

rocking in a corner...

well, let's see...i am slowly going crazy? i've cried more this weekend than i have all year.

saturday night was a rowdy night. did lots of shots, had lots of beer, then we all went back to the 'frat house' to party some more. i was sitting in nathan's room and we had a joint. can someone tell me why i then started to bawl my eyes out? jen must have thought that i was on crack because i didn't actually tell her why i was crying. everyone thought that i was crying because my cell phone fell into my water glass. no, there are other reasons. it was like a sudden wave of depression hitting me in the face. i stopped eventually but it seemed like i was crying for a really, really long time.

side note: why do all asian men love wearing white sport socks with black dress pants and black shoes?! (there's a condo sale going on in front of me at work right now and there are shit loads of chinese people around)

after everyone left, nathan asked me what was wrong and then i started crying all over again. i ended up falling asleep on a tear stained pillow while listening to led zeplin.

then yesterday, i was walking on bloor and a creepy man who was talking to himself started to walk to behind me. i called alex so someone would be able to call the cops if crazy man did anything. i told him that i cried the night before and then he asked why. i started talking about the reasons all over again and then i started crying yet again. i felt like a crack whore walking by sherbourne. i was suppose to go over to his place to talk about my depressing thoughts but decided to go home to hermit in my room instead.

he wasn't happy that i just wanted to go home but gave up the fight. i should have know that he was going to be at r.h. waiting for me. haha, he must have whipped his blades on and motored down. i got a lecture about suicidal thoughts and then i got the "i love you" speech. fun times!!!....not. argh...anyway, i felt better.

i was really late for work this morning. elizabeth noticed that i wasn't my perky self and asked what was wrong. i told her that i had a rough weekend and she let it go. liz yelled at me though. elizabeth tried to cut her off but it didn't work so i started tearing up in front of them. don't you love talking to your bosses when they're mad at you and you're choking on your emotions? nice way to kick of the work week.

anyway, i'm going to go find some food.

wipe out!

i went rollerblading yesterday and wiped out in front of danforth tech. it was the first time i've fallen in years. my front wheels on my left skate got caught on some tar. the rain rehydrated them and they were tacky. good thing the red head behind me kept her distance and braked. i skinned my knee a little and i put a hole into my yoga pants. oh well, those will now be designated "rollerblading" pants now. i have to get some switch-witch to fix the hole. i hope it's not too obvious when i'm done.

i was at broadview station today and saw some little kids getting transfers. the new machines aren't nearly as fun as the machines that were around when i was little. the new machines just beep now; the old ones would make this loud clunky chopping sound. and it actually spat the transfer out at you.

i gotta work the bar at boiler house tomorrow night. dean and i are going to be super crusty around midnight. i'm fairly certain that we're going to be hating everyone after both working doubles without other bartenders to relieve us at any point.

another long day of interviews today. at least all the rejects have been weeded out. this girl, sienna, came in last week with her rèsumé and tried to sell herself really hard. peter said to throw her into the pile and have her come in for an interview. i wasn't very impressed with her the first time because she her confidence came off as cockiness and i wasn't very impressed the second time either. sweetie, do you not realize that there's a HUGE hole in your panty hose?

i'm supposed to "slap something together" (peter's words) for orientation. i hope no ones says anything stupid during orientation. i wonder how many people will get dressed up for orientation. haha, i'll show up in sweats and they'll be in power suits. fun times!

anyway, time to make some lunch and snacks for tomorrow so i don't faint.

holy bikini batman!

yikes, i'm going slightly nuts with ebay and bikini's. so far, i've received one and i still have four more on the way. i feel well stocked now so i have to find something else to obsess about on ebay. i still need to get a white suit...your tan looks so good against a white suit. love it!! now i just need to lose some winter fat and then some 'baby fat' that just never went away.

hmm...i'm not quite sure what i think about nathan at this point. maybe when he moves in with peter and lisa he'll calm down. too much partying right now. he was talking to a girl at the underground last night and they had matching baseball caps on. coincidence? *eyebrow raised*

i saw "be cool" last night. the rock is the best part of the movie. well, vince vaughn playing a wigger was pretty good too. the story line was kinda all over the place but still enjoyable.

anyway, i suppose i should do some work since i am on the clock. if only i could live without money...alas...

don't single gals buy toilet paper too?

i was watching tv and noticed that new(ish) commercial for charmin toilet paper about what's softer than cotton. did anyone else notice that all three of the women in the ad are wearing wedding bands? do they think that only married women buy toiler paper? i'm sure singles care about the softness of their toilet paper too.

hmm...another ad that just annoyed me. the heritage commercial for the avro arrow. why do we listen to the americans? we should have just continued building it. the americans would have paid tons of cash for the patent.

wow, yet another ad that's stupid. i guess i should stop commenting on these commercials since there are shit loads of them. i hate the dating hotline commercials with horrible female actresses pretended to love chatting on the phone with random men that call.

i'm not feeling so glum anymore (hurrah!). so journalism is no longer a career path that i'm looking at. i've realized that i'll be happiest if i work with food in some way whether it's nutrition or cooking. we shall see where this path leads me.

something's wrong with the router in my house. i can connect outside of my house to other networks but it's always screwed up when i try to connect to my network at home. i went to the reference library the other day and was able to connect to tons of stuff.

i finally got new glasses!!! hurrah!! too bad they were out of my price range but hey, i've got six months interest free to pay them off. my old pair broke sunday night when i was racing for shot gun in will's car. i ended smacking the side of my head off the door and the arm broke off my frame. i felt like the biggest dork wearing broken glasses with one arm.

casting call at the distillery. this week's casting call was a bust. apparently the ad in the toronto star was was too small. this week we advertised in now magazine so the turn out should be much better and the applicants should be 'hipper' and hopefully hotter as well *fingers crossed*.

*yawn* lates.

lost

i am once again in a state of nothingness. i'm just here not doing anything. i feel like i'm drifting a big grey mass that has no boarders making it difficult to drift out of. i lack purpose right now. it's time for me to sit down and think about what i want to do with my life and write a five year plan. too bad writing one is much easier than following one.

never settle

i'm taking a break from cleaning up the remnants of my oscar party. nothing was broken and nothing was spilt (hurrah!). i have to vacuum the couches in a minute but i'd rather procrastinate for a minute because that's what i do best.

auston is the most annoying person i've ever met in my entire life. i don't know what the hell jen is thinking but she needs to dump him so badly. unfortunately, she has settled for what's around instead of what's actually good. he kept repeating everything over and over again tonight. and he was annoying jen too. i think she was annoyed because she could tell that i was annoyed. oh well, there's really nothing i can do about it. i'm just going to sit back, cross my fingers, and hope that whatever drug(s) she's on starts wearing off sooner rather than later.

ben showed up today. it was a nice surprise. i didn't think he would make it because he had a gig tonight and cj didn't make it. i'm fairly certain that him and nathan intended to take power naps and ended up falling asleep until tomorrow afternoon. if you deprive your body of sleep, it will automatically shut down. poor dumb boys. they really need to stop partying so hard all the time. it's starting to take its toll on them.

so i've decided that i don't want to get my journalism certificate. i think i'm going to go for my editing certificate. gotta start looking in to full time programmes. maybe i'll start something next january instead of this fall. i'm pretty sure that i've already missed the deadline for the fall semester. hmm...going to research that now before i put it off until it's too late.

what pub?

well, it turns out that 1832 will not be properly renovated for whatever reason. no one really knows what's going on. the 'higher powers that be' had a meeting today and then announced that we wouldn't be closing down any time soon. it's not going to be a pub so they need to stop using that word. i was really excited to see relaunching of the place but now i just feel indifferent; yet again. i wouldn't want to sit in there all night...it's too cold looking.

jen needs to calm her ass down. if she tells me one more time that she wants a swipe card i'll have no choice but to slap her. hello?? why don't you ask for you? did it ever occur to you that you don't have a card because you haven't asked for one? maybe if you asked for something instead of bitching about not having it, you would get it. two words: anger management.

i need to do laundry tonight. i'm going to try and pull an all-nighter today. get stuff done. gotta straighten up my room. such a mess. there are all of these plastic bags and newpapers on the floor. oh well. i need to also clean out my work space. i've been putting that off until i bought a computer and since i've just done that, time to get cleaning.

hmm..i'm watching law & order right now and i swear i just saw a shop that is in toronto on bloor. i'm confused...do they shoot in toronto?

speaking of shooting in toronto, i was on eastern today on my way to work and noticed some christmas decorations on the street lights. i had to think for a minute as to why they were up and then i remembered that the studios were right there. they're filming near the bakery that makes wonder bread.

i gotta dye my hair again tonight. you know your hair is really faded if the boys at work start telling you "hey, your hair's really yellow now, eh?" i want it to grow faster...need to fix this cut.

why is my forehead breaking out? not big huge zits but lots of little bumps. damn you winter!! this never happens in the summer. hmm...pms?

gotta go find something to snack on. i hate the munchies =(

procrastination

well, that's pretty much what i've been doing all day. well, i went to work but i didn't do much else. i have to study for a psychology test that i have on monday. i was planning on doing that right away when i got home but then i got stuck on ebay. damn obsessive ebay!

i went to indigo after work because i needed to pick up a copy of on human bondage for my journalism class. i was happily surprised to find that the jolly postman is back in print. i picked up a copy for myself and one for oi. surprise #2 at indigo wasn't so good. my debit card got declined and i got a message saying "contact branch". when i got home, i called customer service and for some reason cibc has blocked my debit card. excuse me, did i do something wrong? and why didn't anyone call me to tell me that my card was blocked. or has someone been stalking me and tried to use my account number? it's all very mysterious.

haha, this morning at work, the head chef came out of the kitchen and asked me "is jerk-off around?" i was a bit taken back by that and asked "and which one is that?" i knew that he was referring to another manager but i needed him to be a little more specific. it's nice to know that jason uses "jerk-off" as a term of endearment for his best friend, peter. such a random man.

gary called me "big dubaya" in an e-mail today. i've told him never to call me that again unless he wants to receive multiple stabs to the chest.

my little brother is currently blow drying his hair. i don't understand his obsession with his hair. there have been points in time when his hair has been longer than mine. i think it's funny that he takes just as long, if not longer, to get ready to leave the house as i do.

i was on the bus yesterday and there was this girl sitting across from me. i was pretty sure that it was alex's girlfriend but i wasn't positive. i remembered her being prettier but i talked to alex and it was her. she's got a a little bit of turkey neck going on. hmm...right...that's the jealous 13 year-old in me who's still in love with alex talking. blech. i'm so glad i'm not 13 anymore. i felt like asking her "so, do you know that your boyfriend's a cheating bastard?" and i know that it seems like i wanted to say that just to start shit but i'm not lying. a cheating bastard he is.

i'm having an oscar night party at my house. i'm a little scared as to how many people are going to show up. it is still my parents' house after all. no smoking inside. hmm...i gotta make sure to have lots of paper towel on hand. this could get very messy.

childstar

i'm going to see 'childstar' in a little bit with some friends i used to work with. kristin's actually in it and it's kinda weird sitting in a theatre watching a film when one of the stars is sitting beside you. it's actually kinda cool too. except her last movie had her do a nude scene so we all saw her titties. it was quite funny.

i was at coxwell station the other day and saw some kids getting transfers over and over again. i looked over at the transfer box and remembered how much more fun they were when i was a kid. does anyone else remember the old transfer boxes on the ttc? inside of that round gold button that senses pressure, there was a big red button that made a big chopping sound when you pushed it and the transfer would be spat out at you? i wish they still had those. they were faster that the new ones. not as easy to read but way more fun.

i have a menu test at work, a profile due for magazine writing, and a lot of reading to do in psych. i definitely forgot what it's like to be a student.

dye in my hair

i'm dying my hair pink again. i got it bleached again by marcus at coupe bizzarre and he took forever to do it. he foiled the bleach and the dye. the colour that he used faded out really fast and i figured i should stop being so lazy and just slap the dye in my hair.

i am now an 'assistant event coordinator' at the distillery. i work with a very tight-ass woman and a very fun gay man. haha...they balance each other out quit nicely. and i've inherited a lap top from the old event coordinator that got fired. all the vowels either stick or are super sensitive. it makes e-mailing a biatch and a half.

i've decided that i'm going to buy a laptop within the next month. i did the math and it turns out that all i have to work is clock in full hours for two weeks and i'm good to go. i have enough hard cash stashed away right now that it won't affect my account balances. hurrah! now i can move into my room and stay there. no more wondering "what the hell is this shit on andy's screen?!?!"

gotta go decide what kind of lap top i want. "according to my research..."

quiz

i chatted with my cousin, jennifer, online today for the first time ever. she lived in newmarket when we were kids so we didn't hang out or talk much. anyway, it was cool talking to her. i did poorly on a test she put on her blog.

for those of you who think you know me, take my quiz. there's also a scoreboard. how did you measure up?

i want out

i want to move out of this house. it's so damn loud in here and there's no where to go to hide from it. i don't understand why my family insists on yelling from one room to another inside of walking over to the person they want to talk to and speak at a normal volume level. it's driving me mental. why don't my parents understand that sometimes i don't want to talk and i just want it to be quiet? for fuck's sake! 'i am slowly going crazy...' i'm going to aim to move out in the summer or spring if possible. i just want to have my own space that people aren't allowed in unless they're invited.

ahh...nice venting. well, not that nice since i'm still annoyed and pissed off.

new year's was good. it was a bust in 1832. there definitely wasn't the 600 people that we had last year but i preferred it. i didn't bartend that much because it wasn't busy enough for three of us to be working the one bar. i ended up polishing and rolling a lot of cutlery.

the after party was fun. we all ended up going to eryn's which was great because she had just moved into a place that was right up the street. dean got booze from work and baker and i stole some juices and pop from work for mix.

i ended up falling asleep on a bean bag chair. dean told me that i was snoring really loudly and that nathan and chudi had a good laugh at my expense. *shrug* hey, i know i snore, can't really do anything about it. i think i might have sleep apnea. i should probably go talk to my doctor about it.

gotta full schedule soon. i haven't signed up for classes yet but i'm going to later tonight when peter goes to work. i can't use andy's computer because he doesn't have a printer. ugh...i'm going to be taking a magazine writing course and fucking chris r from work is taking it too. she's such an outsider. i don't mind working with her and talking to her at work but i am not looking forward to having a class with her. i hope there are cool people in the course to pair up with for group projects.

*yawn* enough negativity for now. maybe more later.

happy new year everybody.

full, very much so

i am super duper full. i ate a lamb shank at work, went to the jason george and had nachos and then a slice of turtles cheesecake. i had brown cow and one and a half pints of strongbow. other than that, i didn't have much at all today. just an apple on my way to work. bleech...it's not a lot of food stretched over the course of the day but it's a fair bit of food for an hour and a half. such a little piggy. tisk tisk...new year's resolution??? i think so...

jen and auston are dating, nes pas? i'm not sure. they're all touchy feely but i don't know if they're dating. i've stopped asking jen because i don't find auston all that attractive. i can't help but say "ew" when i think about him. it's slightly gross. i like him as a friend but never would i think about him romantically or sexually. bleech...

jessica's going away to new zealand for four months. lucky girl. i think i'm going to go out west in the spring. cj was saying how he wanted to go out west by via and i asked if i could join him. the plan is to take the train so we can literally see everything and make stops along the way. he wants to stop and see louise in alberta.

tomorrow is going to be a long day. gotta get off my lazy ass and do stuff in the day and then go to work for a super long shift. i'm scheduled 4 until 4. i'm sure it's going to be longer that then.

my father just came and asked me what a tsunami is. it's so sad and terrible. the news said the death count is over 117, 000. people at work were saying how it's really a lot higher because sri lanka doesn't keep proper records of their people so no one really knows how many sri lankans are missing. i'm very glad that tanya, a girl who i used to work with, finally called home. she's in thailand and no one knew if she was alright or not.

gotta get to bed. i wish my bed had the ability to become uncomfortable in the mornings so i wouldn't want to stay in it all day.

merry christmas

merry christmas everyone!!! i ate too much food!!! i ate two plates of dinner, drank two mugs of mango juice, and had some fruit after all of that. it doesn't sound like a lot but it was my first meal of the day so my stomach strunk. i didn't plan for it to be my first meal of the day but i ended up being a lazy bitch and staying in bed until really late. i pooed and then contemplated making myself throw up. the over-full feeling went away pretty fast so it was okay. i ate some more fruit after that.

my baby second cousin, sheldon, is so cute! his dad, herbert, told him to give me a kiss so he could take a picture and he kissed me on the lips really fast and then ran to look at the picture on the digicam before herbert got a chance to take a picture. he did it twice! so cute! i must sound really dumb using all these exclamation marks!!! after that, we had some fun with a magnidoodle.

my cousins and i played some trivia pursuit after dinner. we didn't play the actual game. we just asked questions but it eventually turned into 'reach for the top' because i was the only one asking questions and everyone else spazzed and shouted out the answers. claudia was playing too and for some reason, she and mimi would shout out the answers and point at me if they knew the answer. they both got very excited about the game.

i'm going boxing day shopping this year. i haven't gone since my mother took me and my brothers when we were kids. was she nuts? why the hell would you take children to a packed mall on boxing day? not my idea of a fun day. anyway, i hope i'll score some kick ass deals. mimi wants to go for 8:00 a.m. when the mall opens.

anyway, i'm going to read magazines now. once again, merry christmas!!!

i want to be a slayer

i saw 'blade trinity' last night. i'm very glad to report that it was much better than the second one. not so much cheese in the third installment. and can someone tell me the hell did ryan reynolds get so damn hot? *drool*drool* oh sorry, lemme wipe my spit off of the screen now. he spends a good 20 minutes topless. *still drooling*

blade kills dracula in the film so will there be another blade film? they left it open ended so who knows. they make a killing with those films.

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i thought that i was in a blogging mood, but i'm not. lates...

baby, it's cold outside

that's my favourite christmas song. it's the only one that doesn't piss me off and make me hate christmas. 'santa baby' really annoys me because it always sounds like a dumb skanky bimbo is singing it. i heard some carolers outside at pape logan tonight. i remember doing that when i was in choir.

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i got everything that i need to make my fudge. i've given up on finding raspberry extract because apparently, it doesn't exist. well, i know that it exists, i just don't know where the hell to find it. i went to sun valley and to the big carrot and neither of them had it. they had all the other flavours though; alas, all useless to me...*sigh*. i googled some more recipes and it turns out that i can just use raspberry flavoured liquor instead. hurrah! my mood was lifted when i learned that.

i also bought all the packaging that i need. so far, this year's christmas giving has cost me roughly $30 for nearly 10 people which is GRRRREAT (tony the tiger great)!!!! three bucks per person, not bad. not bad at all. now i need to buy some cards. i can't decide if i want to get cards made for school children to pass out in class or if i want proper adult cards. it would be cheaper to get the little kiddie ones. maybe i can find some transformers cards! that would be kick ass.

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i gotta clean my room tonight. my parents are coming back from florida tomorrow and i have yet to move all of my stuff from the basement. i'm such a procrastinator. i should have done it months ago but of course, i enjoy tormenting myself by leaving things until the very last minute. argh! when will i learn? when??

i also have a least two loads of laundry to do. i've run out of clothes to wear. it's not too bad since i have to work a lot this week so i'll mostly be in my uniform. i'll probably wear sweat pants the rest of the time because i'll be so tired. i love sweat pants!!! and pumas...love pumas...must buy more.

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i am now obsessed with winter coats. i want more and more of them. i want to buy a white one from aritzia. a longer one that covers my butt that also has a hood. jen's going to wonder what the hell is wrong with me. she's already questioned me about the number of coats i have. oh well, she's got a gazillion shoes so she's not one to talk.

i bought two spatulas from williams-sonoma today. the line ups in the mall are hell. avoid them until january if you can. shop online. save precious minutes of your life being wasted from standing in line.

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okay, time to stop procrastinating and doing chores.

where are the hot strippers?

i went out to milestones for dinner with some old friends from jack astor's tonight. we must have looked retarded to pepole because we were laughing so much. there were some hot waiters that dropped off food and drinks at our table and we blatantly stared at them. nothing wrong with that.

anyway, some how the conversation turned to strip clubs and tammy said that she had never been so we ended up going to the zanzibar on yonge. not one of the 'dancers' danced. tammy and jen g went and got a lap/table dance which was pretty damn funny. there were a lot of sketchy looking old guys in there too.

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on saturday, i got cut from my night shift so i went for dinner with jen b. (i know, jen is such a common name). steaks at podium were really good but i was surprised at how high the bill was. or should i say how low the discount was. i thought there was more of a difference. oh well. at least it was a good meal.

afterwards, we ended up at the underground garage. steve must think that i'm in love with him now because i had smoked some pot and was staring at him all night. not obsessed, he was just the first thing in my line of vision. why does pure spirits have all the hot chefs? we're stuck with little creepy brown guys and gay men. boo!!

afterwards, we went and got chinese food and went to adam's. dean got the guys at the underground to loan him a two-four of corona. around 4:30 jen and adam started to drift off on the couch and they were holding hands. dean and i decided it was time to go home but jen decided to stay the night. i wonder...hmm... i really should stop being so gossipy. why am i so nosy? why?!?!

there was also a guy wearing a green shirt and leather pants. i was going to slap his ass really hard but then steve said he wanted a slap and i tried to get the leather pants dude to stand in front of steve so when i slapped steve, he would hump a leather clad ass. i don't remember the guys name but he looked like a leprechaun because he was dancing all weird. i started singing "we all know where the rainbow goes" from the pot of gold commercials and jen and dean pissed there pants and i had to run away.

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i've decided that i'm going to make fudge as presents this year. i bought three pounds of chocolate today for $15 and icing sugar for $1.27 and i have the rest of the stuff that i need. i'm going to make mint chocolate fudge and i also want to make raspberry chocolate fudge but i wasn't able to find raspberry extract today. hopefully i'll be able to locate some tomorrow. anyhoo, off to make my first batch of the season.